Hello everyone,

How much can life change in a span of few days ? Maybe some changes here and there. Let me tell how much my life changed in a blink of an eye, how much my life changed with a single message.

I lost my my a best friend of 8 years, I lost a person who was my greatest support, she was person who I called Soul Sister. Its been almost 2 months now and I can still believe the reality. How can a person stop existing. How can someone whom I called my soul sister just leave me alone in this world. She was a part of my soul, the hollowness she has left in me is eating me by inside

It feels like somebody has just cut me and left open. I am trying to gather some courage to believe the reality but the pain makes me feel that it is better to live in denial. I can never explain how she made my life beautiful. She was my hope in every situation, she was my no judgement zone. She always encouraged me to be a better person, she encouraged me to be the best version of myself. She came in life when i was lost and lonely just like a knight in shining armour she held me and my life together. Her leaving me has broken my down totally, the world seems cruel, the night seems dark, I feel lost and alone. I feel this is my low and can never find a friend, the thought of living my life without her suffocates me. I trust in God and trust his plan. I knew there can be no replacement of what God has taken from me but I am willing to keep hope that God will provide me with strength and support. All I have to do is survive this storm.

I have always appreciated her presence in my life, so I live with no regrets about unsaid things. In my last 8 years of life I have not slept without letting her know that I loved and appreciated her. There has been no morning where I didn’t wish her good morning nor a night has passed without me wishing her. I have always shared everything I felt, i have always said everything that came into my mind but sometimes I feel there is more I want to say, so this one is for her.

I know without you this existence will be possible, as existence is always possible. But I know that right now I am just existing and nothing else.


I need you to make this existence into life,
I need you to make this days worth living,
I need you to end my frown and bring a smile,
I need you to know that sun will always rise and shine,
I need you to know that nights will never ever be dark again,
I need you to know that my existence matters.


Now you have left with nothing to hold to survive alone, all I have is our memories. I pray that this memories give me strength to achieve what all we planned. A best friend is your sister, your mother, your brother, your soulmate packed in one. With you I have not lost just a best friend but I have lost alot.

Life has not become unpredictable after Covid, life has always been like this. We just failed to realise the intensity of it. So today I want to encourage everyone to appreciate the people in your life because you never know when it’s their or your last day on earth. This life js journey and we can never when this journey is going to end. Just in my last blog post I wrote about her specially thanked her and here I am writing again today and she is no more. I love you Suru, you will always be a part of me.

RIP Suru ❤️

I also hope you guys are doing well and staying safe.

If not then smile as things will get better soon.